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Feel, no feel… What?

When you feel but you don’t .

When you care but you don’t.

Hurt, pain, sadness. Which one is it.

Joy, comfort, happiness. There but so invisible.

Trust… What and how?

You’re moving forward but towards the back…


Pain

You have been living with me and inside me.

You have been lingering around always teasing me with the idea that you are finally gone and out of my life. But you always find the perfect moment to slap me with your presence right smack in thé face.

You are thé worse poison I’ve encountered and wish I had the antidote to kill you.

I hope one day you get to feel the equivalente of what I feel. I hope you lose exactly what I’ve lost.

Thank you for having destroyed my life, taken away all the joy I could ever possibly feel and robbing me from the love I ever got.

Hope you are happy with what you’ve done. Don’t you think your job is done?


When The Heart Bleeds

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I know for those who do not have the habit of writing will sigh when is said “Writing down what you feel is good therapy” and it is.

After an extreme ordeal it was suggested that I consult a professional to help me move forward into my new life. Took a while before I convinced myself to find someone, chose the second one and sat in the famous chair and we both started listening to the sound of crickets.

A few sessions down the road, I was given the homework of writing anything that was going through my mind at any given time. It didn’t matter what, as long I was writing something. It started with a phrase and eventually turned into pages until I rediscovered a best friend I had lost a long time ago, myself.

Who best to listen to your bleeding heart but yourself! Thinking and talking to yourself doesn’t release the pain as well as pouring the blood onto paper. Of course you can talk it over with friends without forgetting the pint of ice cream or beer, which helps, but there are no reservations when it’s just you, the ink and the paper (or keyboard of course).

Between you and yourself, there are no worries about being judged, reprimanded, ridiculed, etc… Especially if the cause of your bleeding heart is a certain someone. You can shed your tears, share your fears, unleash the anger or pour your heart out.

So the best piece of advice and lesson learned from my professional friend before dealing with an issue that is poisoning the heart, “grab your weapons (pen and paper), take position (write), ATTACK!!! (face the issue with a clearer head).


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